When Jordan Kimball approachedChristian Estradaon the beach inParadise, he says he had no idea it would end with both of them getting kicked off the show.

Kimball addressed his ousting on the latest episode ofThe Betchelorpodcast, admitting that the situation escalated faster than he expected.

“Things happened between Christian and I much quicker than I thought they were going to,” he said. “I had no intentions of making a physical altercation, I stated that with [host]Chris Harrisonright after the fight.”

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Jordan Kimball Christian Estrada

Thefirst half of the altercationaired on last Tuesday’s episode ofBachelor in Paradiseafter Kimball attempted to rip down a piñata Estrada had set up for Nicole Lopez-Alvar because his friend,Clay Harbor, was also wooing her. After a scuffle, Kimball slammed Estrada to the ground, and on Monday’s episode, both contestantswere sent homeper the show’s zero-tolerance policy toward violence.

Despite their history, Kimball, 27, insists that he “didn’t go over there because I have beef with Christian.” (The two previously got into it during theMen Tell Allepisode ofBecca Kufrin‘s season ofThe Bachelorette.)

“I went over there because Clay and I are actually friends,” he said. “I didn’t go over there and grab Christian. I didn’t go over there and call him any names or anything. He went a couple of times and tried to strike me.”

“So I tossed him,” he continued. “That was the number one self-defense move of all time. He went down pretty hard and fast. I feel really bad, but I was defending myself. I didn’t pop him in the mouth, I didn’t go after him, it was over. I did what I did to protect myself.”

Kimball said while he understood that he had to leave, he “wasn’t ready [to go home].”

“I was having a ton of fun and it just went south,” he said.

“I went home, and I was a little concerned that people were going to come for me,” he said. “I called my dad and some people that are close to me and I was like, ‘It is what it is.’

“I tried to act as maturely as possible,” he said. “But I know there’s a percentage of people who don’t agree with what I did — you’re there for love, and I get that.”

Bachelor in Paradiseairs Mondays and Tuesdays (8 p.m. ET) on ABC.

source: people.com