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Pete Davidson

Pete Davidson’srelationships impacted his work life — and not in the way you may think.

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Kim Kardashian and Pete Davidson

During his time onSNL, Davidson was linked toCazzie David, engaged toAriana Grandeand eventually, in a relationship withKim Kardashian, among others.

“I’m not, like, flexing, you know what I mean? And these people that I’ve dated, I met them at work,” he added. “I wasn’t in anyone’s DMs, no one was in mine. I worked at one of the five Hollywood epicenters of where you meet people and that’s how it happened.”

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Ariana Grande, Pete Davidson

“Suddenly you’re in this zeitgeist and that has nothing to do with the work,” he said. “And that’s a really s—ty feeling. I became more known before the work was there, but I was always working.”

He qualified, “I’m cool with the joke. I get the late-night jokes.”

But occasionally the laughter over hisromantic track recordhit too close to home.

“When your own show [pokes fun at you],” he explained, “I’d be sitting in the back watching the cold open and — the cold open [is] topical, political humor, whatever’s in the culture. And then, making fun of you. Then you’ve gotta walk out and do a sketch next and hit your mark and the show just made fun of you. So, why are they gonna laugh at you? Like, they just dogged you in front of everyone. … And you’re like, ‘I’m a f—ing loser, man.'”

He continued, “These are the people I’ve been with for almost a decade. I grew up in front of these people. They’ve watched me through the most difficult time in my life, and they’ve been there for me. And nobody ever showed more leeway and grace to me thanLorne Michaels, and I owe my life to that guy, but it was f—ing confusing cause the nature of entertainment is the nature of this business. At the end of the day, that’s what it is. This was a really difficult thing to do. You feel small. You feel super insecure.”

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Davidson leftSNLin May 2022.Bupkispremieres May 4 on Peacock.

source: people.com